Addiction....
I myself witness many people who are being addicted to something - to drugs, alcohol, cigarettes, computer games, relationships and many more...
According to wikipedia - The term "addiction" is used in many contexts to describe an obsession, compulsion, or excessive psychological dependence, such as: drug addiction (e.g. alcoholism), video game addiction, crime, money, work addiction, compulsive overeating, problem gambling, computer addiction, nicotine addiction, pornography addiction, etc.
and I myself too is not exempted to be an addict... Yes, you will say to me a "sobra naman ata iyong term na addict", minsan we justify things para mas mapababaw ito. I just realized if I will not stop doing what I am doing right now, one day I will just wake up to be an addict.
Sometimes, we don't realized that we are putting to much time, money, energy to one thing that would make us an addict (obsession, compulsion or excessive) (it might be a computer games, clothes, shoes, new hairstyle, etc.)...
Why I said that if I will not stop what I am doing right now, will make me an addict one day??? Because, of the pressure, stress, emotionless days that I have - I choose to comfort myself, to satisfy myself, to make myself happy for a short time - before hindi ako nag cocomputer shop pero lately, you will find me there because I chose it. I want to do nothing, think nothing, just to fill the time that I will not think of anything, to fill something to my numb heart.... I will play those games that I don't really know or love except of course to farmtown...
everytime I sleep, I don't want to think things, don't want to feel the hurt so I make sure that I will feel nothing - I will mixed a drink that will make me more sleepy (I drink that for 2 nights) yeah, it makes me sleep good and it makes me wake up early in the morning, I believe that there is nothing wrong I am drinking with moderation - it is just a ladies drink. But, as I don't talk to my Father, He continue speaking to me - He pursuing me.. He wants me to go straight to Him if there is something wrong, if I am pressured, stressed, if I am hurt...
I hope, tonight will be the night that I would finally talk, tell, lift up to my heavenly Father.... I already turn my face to home, I just have to move forward, walk forward, endure those things that will hinder me to be home with my heavenly Father...
Matthew 11:28-29
28"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
Come Home Running by Chris Tomlin
Oh heart of mine, why must you stray?
From one so fair you run away
And one more time you have to pay
The heaviness of needless shame
Oh heart of mine, come back home
You've been too long out on your own
And He's been there all along
Watching for you down the road
So come home running
His arms are open wide
His name is Jesus
He understands
He is the answer
You are looking for
So come home running
Just as you are
Oh child of God so dearly loved
And ransomed by the Savior's blood
And called by name, Daughter and Son
Wrapped in the robe of righteousness
According to wikipedia - The term "addiction" is used in many contexts to describe an obsession, compulsion, or excessive psychological dependence, such as: drug addiction (e.g. alcoholism), video game addiction, crime, money, work addiction, compulsive overeating, problem gambling, computer addiction, nicotine addiction, pornography addiction, etc.
and I myself too is not exempted to be an addict... Yes, you will say to me a "sobra naman ata iyong term na addict", minsan we justify things para mas mapababaw ito. I just realized if I will not stop doing what I am doing right now, one day I will just wake up to be an addict.
Sometimes, we don't realized that we are putting to much time, money, energy to one thing that would make us an addict (obsession, compulsion or excessive) (it might be a computer games, clothes, shoes, new hairstyle, etc.)...
Why I said that if I will not stop what I am doing right now, will make me an addict one day??? Because, of the pressure, stress, emotionless days that I have - I choose to comfort myself, to satisfy myself, to make myself happy for a short time - before hindi ako nag cocomputer shop pero lately, you will find me there because I chose it. I want to do nothing, think nothing, just to fill the time that I will not think of anything, to fill something to my numb heart.... I will play those games that I don't really know or love except of course to farmtown...
everytime I sleep, I don't want to think things, don't want to feel the hurt so I make sure that I will feel nothing - I will mixed a drink that will make me more sleepy (I drink that for 2 nights) yeah, it makes me sleep good and it makes me wake up early in the morning, I believe that there is nothing wrong I am drinking with moderation - it is just a ladies drink. But, as I don't talk to my Father, He continue speaking to me - He pursuing me.. He wants me to go straight to Him if there is something wrong, if I am pressured, stressed, if I am hurt...
I hope, tonight will be the night that I would finally talk, tell, lift up to my heavenly Father.... I already turn my face to home, I just have to move forward, walk forward, endure those things that will hinder me to be home with my heavenly Father...
Matthew 11:28-29
28"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
Come Home Running by Chris Tomlin
Oh heart of mine, why must you stray?
From one so fair you run away
And one more time you have to pay
The heaviness of needless shame
Oh heart of mine, come back home
You've been too long out on your own
And He's been there all along
Watching for you down the road
So come home running
His arms are open wide
His name is Jesus
He understands
He is the answer
You are looking for
So come home running
Just as you are
Oh child of God so dearly loved
And ransomed by the Savior's blood
And called by name, Daughter and Son
Wrapped in the robe of righteousness
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