I am a person that always consider other people's thought and opinion especially to those people that i trust.
That is the reason why I couldn't really love just anybody, just anyone out there. But I may say, I easily fall in love or consider someone but I will not commit myself until I found what I am looking for.
Now, I am enjoying my love at the moment, my family, friends, my dmembers. These makes me live my life and love it. But God is good, or I will just say that He is full of love. I know, I don't deserve anything or anyone in this world considering how I am a person but thank God, He is love.
God makes me "kilig". At first I never really considered him, but since he cracked a joke and made me laugh, I started to know him. And yes, I am getting to know him in our few conversations. God also using him for me to be able to have an inspiration - a real inspiration. And most importantly, he got the respect of that people that i really love.
Yes, maybe, I really don't like him or love him yet, and yes, my mind just telling my heart to love and like him - but hey, I easily fall in love. He, from all the guys I know is the only person (as of this time) meet my standards and God's standards. And he is in reality.
Monday, December 5, 2011
Friday, August 19, 2011
God made it possible - 10 years....
When i came to know Jesus Christ - it was like a dream. Having a purpose and meaning of my living. Never I thought that I will be counting years (and praying to continue to count more years) August 18, 2011 I celebrated my 10th year spiritual birthday. And looking back for the past years all I can say is "Thank you God, for making it possible".
A youth like me who grew up in a devoted family, sharing what the Bible say about Jesus wasn't easy. And having a bad temper and being impatient - I stumble and cause my family to question on what I believe. Through God's word, d-group meetings and youth bible study/retreats, little by little I learned how to properly share the gospel, not only how to share it but how will I live my life pleasing to God and attractive to others. As I've said it wasn't easy - but by God's grace, one by one, my family&relatives finally have a personal relationship with God, by accepting the gift of eternal life, putting their trust to Jesus Christ.. It is all because of God. I thank God for giving me the opportunity to be part of His work. Now, seeing my family and relatives - gives me joy.
7 out 10 years, I serve Jesus through youth ministry and I believe that I will be counting more years. As I celebrate my 10th year spiritual birthday - i never thought that God would entrust me of almost 300 youths... 150 students would be enough for me but God doubled it. I shared Jesus to 300 youths and it was amazing. Experiencing Jesus and sharing Him to others are enough for me but knowing and believing Jesus power - I am looking forward for the bonus: seeing some of those students to Jzone.
To end my celebration - I had a date with my spiritual mom. It is quite sometime that we haven't had a chance to have our one on one. I thank God for her - 10years of guiding my spiritual life. It was indeed a joyful moment (especially her message to me and the card that she gave to me...and :D )I am looking forward to more years to have dgroup meetings (my dleader and dgroupmates was indeed one of best model/example to me)...I am looking forward also to have more years of dgroup meetings with my anak and apos..
10 years - and God made it possible. I stumble, fall, turned my back against God but God's loving arms never let me go.... Thank you, my Heavenly Father for not letting me go, thank you for Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior... Thank you for the Holy Spirit that helps me to have characters You wanted me to have... I pray that I will be counting more years seeking You everyday, serving You, obeying You.God, send me.
A youth like me who grew up in a devoted family, sharing what the Bible say about Jesus wasn't easy. And having a bad temper and being impatient - I stumble and cause my family to question on what I believe. Through God's word, d-group meetings and youth bible study/retreats, little by little I learned how to properly share the gospel, not only how to share it but how will I live my life pleasing to God and attractive to others. As I've said it wasn't easy - but by God's grace, one by one, my family&relatives finally have a personal relationship with God, by accepting the gift of eternal life, putting their trust to Jesus Christ.. It is all because of God. I thank God for giving me the opportunity to be part of His work. Now, seeing my family and relatives - gives me joy.
7 out 10 years, I serve Jesus through youth ministry and I believe that I will be counting more years. As I celebrate my 10th year spiritual birthday - i never thought that God would entrust me of almost 300 youths... 150 students would be enough for me but God doubled it. I shared Jesus to 300 youths and it was amazing. Experiencing Jesus and sharing Him to others are enough for me but knowing and believing Jesus power - I am looking forward for the bonus: seeing some of those students to Jzone.
To end my celebration - I had a date with my spiritual mom. It is quite sometime that we haven't had a chance to have our one on one. I thank God for her - 10years of guiding my spiritual life. It was indeed a joyful moment (especially her message to me and the card that she gave to me...and :D )I am looking forward to more years to have dgroup meetings (my dleader and dgroupmates was indeed one of best model/example to me)...I am looking forward also to have more years of dgroup meetings with my anak and apos..
10 years - and God made it possible. I stumble, fall, turned my back against God but God's loving arms never let me go.... Thank you, my Heavenly Father for not letting me go, thank you for Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior... Thank you for the Holy Spirit that helps me to have characters You wanted me to have... I pray that I will be counting more years seeking You everyday, serving You, obeying You.God, send me.
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Did I miss the bus..????
For sometime, there is a question in my heart: "Did I miss the bus?" Is it I am being too harsh? Have high standard? Picky?
When, I will remember or talk to the person that I chose to be just friends and rejected their feelings towards me – I’m thinking – maybe, maybe he could be the right bus. That guy is loyal; he hasn’t breaking up with his girlfriend for so many years, it could be me. My mom likes him; he could be a good provider, he gives expensive gifts, he is a Christian, he teach in their church – he could be the right bus. Or the other guy, a Christian, active in ministry work, a kind and good person, not hot headed – he could be the right bus.
God took that question in my heart with what happened recently. I felt so fooled thinking they might be the bus for me.
A friend told me that it is easy to move on – if you believe that the man God prepared for you is not yet arriving. It is easy to move on if you see that person in your past that, they are not God’s best for you. And by the way, if you believe in God – do not have any reserves.
I thank God that finally, I could stand and firmly say that I haven’t yet missed the right bus for me. For now, I have no time to think about on waiting on the right bus, I am praying for it but for now it is not my heart desire. All I wanted to do is lead a lot of youth to Christ. I missed a lot of opportunity in the past, and I don’t want it to happen again. I want to be part of God’s work. I want to be His instrument.
Ecclesiastes 3:1
1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens
I believe in His proper timing the right bus will soon arrive – but while I am waiting I will serve the Lord.
Isaiah 6:8
8 Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?”
And I said, “Here am I. Send me!”
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Childlike faith....
i believe i already posted a topic like this...but i wanted to update what i am learning about childlike faith....
Recently, my 2 year old niece stayed with us for about 2weeks... and within that period, i've learned from her..
1. She follows and stays close the first person she always with and see with...
2. She prays nth times over a meal.
3. She will not pray until everyone already bowed their heads and close their eyes.
4. She talks a lot. She makes kwento.
5. She just say want she wants and believe that she will get it (pillow and milk).
contrast with me i lost maybe my childlike faith....
1. I never follow, because i haven't spent time with my God.
2. My prayer over a meal is some kinda ritual na lang...
3. I never wait for others, i just pray on my own...
4. I never talk and have a meaningful conversation with Jesus.
5. I never ask, because i might not get it.
and God is telling me
Matthew 18:2-4
2 He called a little child to him, and placed the child among them. 3 And he said: “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. 4 Therefore, whoever takes the lowly position of this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.
As of today, i am trying to apply all the lessons learned.... start from basic, start from being a child....
Recently, my 2 year old niece stayed with us for about 2weeks... and within that period, i've learned from her..
1. She follows and stays close the first person she always with and see with...
2. She prays nth times over a meal.
3. She will not pray until everyone already bowed their heads and close their eyes.
4. She talks a lot. She makes kwento.
5. She just say want she wants and believe that she will get it (pillow and milk).
contrast with me i lost maybe my childlike faith....
1. I never follow, because i haven't spent time with my God.
2. My prayer over a meal is some kinda ritual na lang...
3. I never wait for others, i just pray on my own...
4. I never talk and have a meaningful conversation with Jesus.
5. I never ask, because i might not get it.
and God is telling me
Matthew 18:2-4
2 He called a little child to him, and placed the child among them. 3 And he said: “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. 4 Therefore, whoever takes the lowly position of this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.
As of today, i am trying to apply all the lessons learned.... start from basic, start from being a child....
it is nice to be secure...
i am an insecure person, in every area of my life i don't feel secure (except - spiritual life).... but these friend of mine not just thought me but showed me to be always secure...
I don't like silence, as much as possible we talk... i'm afraid of silence, i will thought that there must be something wrong... but to my friend, it was just a moment to hear other things...
and just a few months ago finally, i was finally been secured... this friend of mine really such such a good person.....as we walking, my shared something to me it is not a secret and it is not that deep but that moment i said to God "wow, not matter the circumstances, nothing will change, our friendship is still that.. thank you God"...
after that moment, i never been insecure... i never worry of silence (ok, slight na lang..hehehe)...
1 Samuel 18:3
3 And Jonathan made a covenant with David because he loved him as himself.
I don't like silence, as much as possible we talk... i'm afraid of silence, i will thought that there must be something wrong... but to my friend, it was just a moment to hear other things...
and just a few months ago finally, i was finally been secured... this friend of mine really such such a good person.....as we walking, my shared something to me it is not a secret and it is not that deep but that moment i said to God "wow, not matter the circumstances, nothing will change, our friendship is still that.. thank you God"...
after that moment, i never been insecure... i never worry of silence (ok, slight na lang..hehehe)...
1 Samuel 18:3
3 And Jonathan made a covenant with David because he loved him as himself.
Monday, December 13, 2010
still home...
it was been a roller coaster ride for me and for my family for the past month.... I will no longer elaborate things but I'm glad - God never stop to mold me till the end of 2010...
I was just so thankful - that I'm now in the middle of the storm. Still and quiet in God's hand....
I am thankful to God that I am still and will sleep in my room - my room which full of my single days memories, my room that I neglected to clean up not till now... i'm so grateful that I cleaned it up - the night of my rest day.
welcome -
bagong ayos, bagong linis..
quiettime / studying Bible table
so thankful that I will not yet leave my stickers in my room (sayang din un...hahaha)
Isaiah 46:10
I make known the end from the beginning, from ancient times, what is still to come. I say, ‘My purpose will stand, and I will do all that I please.’
1 Samuel 16:7
but the LORD looks at the heart.
What my response that matters...what is my attitude towards others and towards the problem matters....
Thank God I was corrected and rebuked....
Now, the problem still existing but I'm now going home - real home.... Everyone are being mold, being more loving to one another......
I was just so thankful - that I'm now in the middle of the storm. Still and quiet in God's hand....
I am thankful to God that I am still and will sleep in my room - my room which full of my single days memories, my room that I neglected to clean up not till now... i'm so grateful that I cleaned it up - the night of my rest day.
welcome -
bagong ayos, bagong linis..
quiettime / studying Bible table
so thankful that I will not yet leave my stickers in my room (sayang din un...hahaha)
Isaiah 46:10
I make known the end from the beginning, from ancient times, what is still to come. I say, ‘My purpose will stand, and I will do all that I please.’
1 Samuel 16:7
but the LORD looks at the heart.
What my response that matters...what is my attitude towards others and towards the problem matters....
Thank God I was corrected and rebuked....
Now, the problem still existing but I'm now going home - real home.... Everyone are being mold, being more loving to one another......
Friday, November 26, 2010
The Bridge
June 30 ng magsimulang gawin ang tulay ng guiguinto sa may ilang-ilang. Matagal ng alam ng tao na gagawin ang tulay na ito ngunit sa tagal na dapat ay nagsimula ito hindi namin o ako inasahan na nun araw na iyon ay sisimulan na.
I maybe not one of the people who complained that day. I was comfortable in an aircon car (but the driving makes me dizzy, so I rather walk sa ilang - ilang than to try that car again.)So I have waited for Monday to see what really going on - the bridge is still passable well by people only so we have to walk from the welding shop to the other side of the bridge. I feel it is ok, everything is ok. Until....
Until, store came out like a mushroom, until they made a metal bridge besides the real bridge. The metal bridge was scary to pass by - because I thought if I would fall or the bridge will fall I will fall directly to the river (which quite not that clean).
I then started to complain, the long walk (from white house(if traffic is bad from rolling door shop) to almost guiguinto municipal and vice versa)....I was so irritated all the vendor and their goods.... I blame them for the traffic and all stuff...
but God changed my heart....
I used to buy their goods, I enjoy seeing them,.. It was also during the construction were I did memorizing verses... I started seeing things as Jesus... I became more grateful and thankful to Jesus, I became more close to Jesus because everytime that I will walk there I will talk to Jesus instead of complaining. Started to believe in good government...It makes people have patience - like waiting on jeepney to go, patience in seating on a jeep half... I enjoyed rain because of the bridge.... I learned how to smile - I always make kasalubong the people I know...
Making the ilang-ilang bridge is not that bad.....it makes me fit (walking), it makes me more grateful and thankful, more patient, it makes another tambayan.....
Today, I was surprised that it is already passable. :) pwede na siguro akong sundiin at ihatid...hahaha...kidding, I'll gonna miss walking on that bridge, I'll gonna miss those people I used to meet and see on that bridge....
Thank God, it was finished.
I maybe not one of the people who complained that day. I was comfortable in an aircon car (but the driving makes me dizzy, so I rather walk sa ilang - ilang than to try that car again.)So I have waited for Monday to see what really going on - the bridge is still passable well by people only so we have to walk from the welding shop to the other side of the bridge. I feel it is ok, everything is ok. Until....
Until, store came out like a mushroom, until they made a metal bridge besides the real bridge. The metal bridge was scary to pass by - because I thought if I would fall or the bridge will fall I will fall directly to the river (which quite not that clean).
I then started to complain, the long walk (from white house(if traffic is bad from rolling door shop) to almost guiguinto municipal and vice versa)....I was so irritated all the vendor and their goods.... I blame them for the traffic and all stuff...
but God changed my heart....
I used to buy their goods, I enjoy seeing them,.. It was also during the construction were I did memorizing verses... I started seeing things as Jesus... I became more grateful and thankful to Jesus, I became more close to Jesus because everytime that I will walk there I will talk to Jesus instead of complaining. Started to believe in good government...It makes people have patience - like waiting on jeepney to go, patience in seating on a jeep half... I enjoyed rain because of the bridge.... I learned how to smile - I always make kasalubong the people I know...
Making the ilang-ilang bridge is not that bad.....it makes me fit (walking), it makes me more grateful and thankful, more patient, it makes another tambayan.....
Today, I was surprised that it is already passable. :) pwede na siguro akong sundiin at ihatid...hahaha...kidding, I'll gonna miss walking on that bridge, I'll gonna miss those people I used to meet and see on that bridge....
Thank God, it was finished.
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